(I want to apologize in advance for the rambling I am about to do.)
I have never had to make a hard choice. College, a job after graduation, fun roommates, I met someone great, got married, bought a house and babies arrived (boy first and then a girl, in that order of course).
I have had hardships, but for the most part – I have always known where life would take me next. And God has certainly blessed me.
Since Emmy arrive, I have been struggling between two great choices. Go back to work or stay home? Work is the safe answer – I know what it is like to be a working mom.
BUT today I made the decision to leave my AMAZING job and stay home with thekiddos. It was the most difficult decision I have ever made. Why? Because I loved my job. The people are smart, talented, kind and encouraging. Sure I got annoyed with silly stuff, but overall, I was really happy. I learned new things, worked with cool people, saw New York City for the first time, I even went with my boss to see President Obama speak (I could write a really long post on the amazing people who worked on the team).
But now, for the first time in my life, I start on a path of the unknown. Will everything be ok? Will my kids get sick of me? Will I get sick of them? Will I have regrets? Will I be a good mom?
I think the answers to all those questions are “probably yes.” But that’s ok.